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Her rhythm didn't initially look much different than it had for the last couple weeks, while she had bounced between I.C.U. and Telemetry. Her ST segments were elevated (indicative of all the damage her old MI's had done). Her problems would get bad and she would be on I.C.U., then she'd improve and be on telemetry...but then she'd get bad again and come back. I'd taken care of her many nights and knew her face well now, even though all I was seeing was a line on a monitor. |
I thought about what she had told me of her life. Working night shift, I often have the unique opportunitity to "chat" with my patients, when they cannot sleep, and at times like this, I really appreciate that. I thought about how she had married young - the one man she ever loved had died almost 20 years ago. Now, it appeared, she was finally joining him. I thought about her children and grandchildren, grateful for those who had been in to see her and had helped the acceptence of her end time to come easy. I began espically thinking about her one son who had not been in...did he know? Quickly, I called 5C to be sure they had called him. |
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I watched as this tragic pump slowed down to a crawl. I remembered Mrs. Smith's tired, often pain-engulfed face and her wrinkled hands. I remembered how her hands felt, as I had held them, on occasion, during the bad times. I remembered that this dying heart was MORE than just a line on a piece of graph paper - she was a lady and she had a life and people who loved her and would miss her. I didn't want to forget that for one minute of the time I was privledged to share in this event. I don't ever want to forget. |